Thursday, January 8, 2009

God First

Aren't they a beautiful couple?? That is Sweetheart's great grandparents on their wedding day. I am planning a post on this couple and their children soon. I want it documented here for my children. The picture is one of my favorites.
So what has been going on in my home? Much of the same, but I will share it all anyway ;). One of my goals for 2009 has to do with my priorities. They are as follows:
God
Sweetheart
My children
My home
My extended family/ministry/friends
It all sounds great right?? In theory. I feel like I do put God first in my heart...in my actions; that is another story. My Spiritual goal for 2009 is to spend more time alone with God. I am in the Word everyday, for home school and for my Thanksgiving blog, but I am talking about the time alone with the Word of God, tasting...my pastor just said to me, "The Word of God should be like honey on your tongue." Right now I am reading through the Psalms and then I will read through the New Testament. In reading my post from the other day, I have realized (and it has been confirmed for me) that I have let my heart grow hard toward my daughter. It is very hard for me to trust her. I also know it is hard for her to trust me. After all these years she has no reason not to, but a traumatized child does not have that logic. I am not a child. I know better, but still allowed my heart to grow cold. Are you thinking, "Don't be so hard on yourself."? Well I have to be in this instance. I came into my office the other day and on my desk was this angel.A note was with it that said:
"For You Mom
God picks Angels
You are my Angel and
I love you.
Charlotte"
Awwwww.....isn't that beautiful? Any mother would be so touched by that. Instinctively, my gut reaction was to think, "Oh my gosh! What is she up to now?" SHAME ON ME! The Lord spoke to me in my time with Him, reminding me I have been praying (along with many of you) for Charlotte to heal and bond to me. When there is a small sign that that is happening, I reject it. Now, know that I did not reject it to her...I told her how beautiful it was and thanked her. Did I thank God? No. I did later, after I repented for my hard heartedness. 2009....a year of God first. Not always an easy thing!
So how are my kids doing?? We are enjoying home school. Reading aloud from the books of Laura Ingalls Wilder and The Magic Map. Zach is thrilled with his Science and Social Studies workbooks....he has asked for more so I ordered him English also.Charlotte is working very hard at math...she is behind, as I will not move forward until a concept is mastered. She wants to catch up so she is doing 2 math lessons a day instead of one at her own choosing.I am working hard at home. My 2 favorite cleaners have been busy....Murphy's Oil and Tea Tree Oil. Love those two mixed together.Two nights in a row I forgot to run the dishwasher. Don't ya hate that??? Two mornings in a row saw breakfast dishes washed by hand....I actually like to wash dishes by hand. The warm water and the time standing at the sink are comforting somehow. I still love my dishwasher, but washing dishes by hand once in a while is no big deal. I am a slob when I wash dishes by hand, always ending up with a midriff full of soapy water. My aprons are stored in the laundry room and are out of sight....therefore out of mind. I decided to hang them right out in the open. First I pressed them all nicely....Nothing prettier than a pressed apron! Then I hung them in their new spot....Right in the kitchen where they belong. Easy to access and ready for use!
Not on my priority list, but I wanted to show you some of the sewing I have done recently. I made 4 sewing machine mats for Christmas gifts. I am just not a great machine quilter!!!! At least the machines will sit on my imperfections!!Two more in these fabrics....Another gift made and received is this little table topper/wall hanging.I had so much fun hand quilting this. I plan to use that braid in other projects....I just loved it.
Well that's all that is going on around here. Thanks for stopping by for a visit!
Have a blessed Day!!!!

6 comments:

Bella Bride said...

Hi Bren. I found your site a few weeks ago when I was compiling info to make a household notebook. I am 23 and a newlywed, and I wanted to start the year of right-ORGANIZED:) Well I just thought I would leave you a comment and let you know that I too was homeschooled, and we used ACE like you do. We used it for every subject, and I loved it. I was thouroughly prepared for college when I finished all the ACE curriculum (at 16), and now I am in grad school. Kudos to you for homeschooling!!!

Donetta said...

That is so much prettier in person, the sunflower topper. It rests in my home now. Thank you so much Sis.

Alesha said...

Ooooo that last topper/hanging is just very purty!!! :-)

It's so hard to be a subjective parent, isn't it? I'm thankful that once in a while, God gives us that glimpse of "forest" while we're still surrounded by all the "trees".

I have seen your heart growing toward Charlotte. I know you probably see every step backward; but I have noticed many steps forward, as well.

As long as your heart stays tender toward God, it will stay right toward her as well. You are very wise to put your relationship with Him first!

:-)
Alesha

Sarah said...

Hi, Bren! I love the sewing machine mats! I need one... perhaps I will go fabric shopping this weekend! I am very interested in the meal plan you are using. I don't have your e-mail address to e-mail you. Mine is billyandsarahdusenberry@yahoo.com. I hope you have a blessed weekend!

Kaira said...

Is that a Christian based math workbook? I thought it looked like it - if so, can you tell me where you got it? thanks! wonderful goals for 2009.

be blessed abundantly,
Kaira

Kaira said...

Silly me - it is getting late and those are obviously not math workbooks, lol! What curriculum are they from though?