Big Loser!!!!

Eating to Live...not living to eat.

This is my plan for 2008. The same as about a trillion other Americans. We ARE FAT! I am tired of being fat. I lose and gain the same 30 pounds once a year. It is really hard to lose that 30 but somehow it goes back on so easy. I do not think it is healthy to lose and gain that 30 pounds over and over either. Now since I quit smoking over a year ago, I have put on 40 pounds, but let me tell you...it has gone on my body in a very different way. My middle use to be thin...I had that hour glass shape to me even when I was heavy. Now I have no shape...more like an apple. Since I started baking I have added even more inches. Baking is not bad...will power, or lack of it, is what is bad. One of the fruits of the Spirit is "self control" I have none where sugar is concerned. I love sugar. It makes me feel good...for a second, then the after effects are terrible. I get rapid hard heartbeats after eating anything with High Fructose Corn Syrup...it is called dumping syndrome and is awful. Ketchup, unless organic, makes me very ill. I get tired and need a "nap" after eating sugary treats. Of course I do not eat just 1 cookie, and my "slice" of pie is equal to 1/4 of the entire pie...those "slivers" add up! So what to do??? I have done Atkins and lost 63 pounds. I did not eat a piece of bread, noodle, or potato for an entire year. I looked GREAT! and felt really good too. Problem is my body can not flip flop back and forth...I need a lifestyle change. A program that is something I can live with for the rest of my life. I have had great success with Body For Life in the past. Not as many pounds came off but I changed my body in a way that I actually saw "definition". I also felt good. Weight Watchers is a great program too. Not for me. I feel sick on it. I am thinking I will go back to Body For Life. This will mean LOTS of work and I will need to get the treadmill back up somewhere, somehow. Here are my 2 cookbooks that will become my best friends.

Bill Phillips designed the Body For Life program and his cookbook, Eating for Life has some great recipes. The Biggest Loser cookbook has many also and they are easily used in the Body For Life program. PLUS...Angie has lived this program and can encourage me along the way. My first goal...50 pounds. I am even going to put one of those little tracking deals on my sidebar to keep track of pounds lost. I will not blog on a regular basis on this subject as, "WHO CARES!", but I may do a weekly update on my progress. I am old. Too old to be raising little kids and be fat along with it. So far, at 47, I have had no surgeries in my life, I am not on any medications, and have no health issues to speak of. I am testing God here if I keep on the path of obesity.

On the quilting front, I am finishing up the binding on Kyle's gift quilt. His teacher is coming Friday (she thinks) and he will give it to her then.We still have not gotten Kyle into see a Neurologist. I cried on the phone to the nurse and I think she will talk to the doc herself. I was so completely horrified. We have paid insurance premiums on Kyle for 21 years. We have paid 20 % plus copays of all his medical care (which has been extensive), all the while he qualified for medical assistance. We chose not to do this as he is our son and we felt to take from our government when we did not need to was wrong. After Kyle graduated at 21, our insurance dropped him. He now HAD to have a medical card. Well guess what?? When you have a medical card, you do not get in to a doctor just because you have a referral from your family doctor and you need to see a specialist. NEVER have I felt like such a...what's the word?....LOSER in my life (and not the weight loss kind). So after crying to this lady about how we did the "right" thing for years, only to now be treated second class because we HAVE to have a medical card, was heartbreaking for my son, she changed her tone and said she would take care of it herself and call me back this afternoon. Pray that Kyle is seen SOON. I am off to spend my Wednesday with Sweet Hubby and the kids...it is our Saturday, and hopefully get some more sewing done on this binding.